Doooohhhhhh :) :) :)

Today is a good one :) cause im 6 POUNDS DOWN YAAAAALLLLLLL WHATS GOOOOOD

okay- the biggest thing ive noticed this week: how much less of an appetite I have. It's weird, and completely awesome. For instance, the margarita grilled chicken meal at chilis- I used to be able to eat all of it before I felt full, now Im full just half way in. A chewy bar is a lot more satisfying than it used to be, and so is the progressive light soup. I cant even eat the whole can anymore. My tummy is shrinking wooohooo!

This number is the least Ive weighed since the start of sophomore year, and i could not be more proud of myself to have made it this far, so why stop now? Ideally, i have about 12 more pounds to lose so I am about one third the way to my goal weight :) Today could not be better timing to be reaching this milestone. ITS ZETA FORMAL tonight and then senior week starts monday! I am SOSOSOSO excited. I have been looking forward to today since....... Februaryish and im gonna look so good in my dress :) cant wait to take pictures with everyone!

today i must leave you with a short, sweet post. I am much too anxious for tonight to be sitting here on my laptop :) love you all! XOXO

here is me at 5 pounds down...

It's almost summer time eeeee!

Hey friends :)

i am so proud to sit here and announce that i am officially 4 pounds down and it feels so gooooood! I realize four pounds isnt THAT much but.....





thats what five pounds looks like which i will hopefully be to by this time in a few days :) i celebrated my lesser weight by ordering some cheddar peppers at sonic (350 cal) and i am being completely honest when i say it was the best order of cheddar peppers ive ever had. I am continuing to make healthy choices and consume less which is a little more difficult while im at work from 4-9 during the week. I have made it a goal of mine to work for 5 days straight without any of the concession stand food- im currently sitting at 3 days in a row. While snooping around at the snack bar i've found 2 options that could be considered the "best" choice for a snack- kellogg's fruit snacks or a large dill pickle. The pickle is only 5 calories but i can't see myself ever intentionally eating one, you know? im not a huge giant pickle fan- its weird. I like never crave pickles. The fruit snacks are 200 calories per package (the serving size is 10 pieces at 80 calories, but i mean come on who can eat just 10 of those and stop themselves? not me) and are deliciously addictive, so most likely i will just limit myself to one of those if needed.

I also began doing a ton of arm lifts and ab workouts and have noticed a bigger difference in my body there :) not to mention it feels really good to be leaving the gym feeling accomplished about a workout for once. I am still very frustrated about my legs and how I cant do any lower lifts, but I have been using the treadmill more often... its just so boring -__-
oh and hey i am also far less pale than i was 2 weeks ago so yay another improvement lol gotta be looking good for formal next weekend- SO EXCITED.
The next mini goal i have decided to embark upon is sleep- this past week i havent gotten much of it and i am so lethargic feeling during the day, and i am even getting sick again so i think that if i could just manage to try for at least 8 hours a night from now on then i will be feeling much better about myself.

i was very uncertain whether or not to add some progressive photos but what the hell, if im gonna do this then i might as well do it all the way- here is me- officially 2 weeks in, 4 pounds down, and, while still not where i want to be, completely stoked to be seeing progress for the first time:

sooo...... yeah...... this is slightly awkward cause im not sure what to say other than the fact that i am very self conscious to be revealing these photos on this website. I dont have any intention of showing this blog to anyone but my zeta sisters, so if any of yall are seeing this- try not to show this to anyone else just yet please :/ i am using you guys as a tool to push me toward my goals and it really has helped me! I doubt the entire chapter reads this or even that half of the group does, but it gives me extra incentive to keep pushing myself. The mindset that ive had since starting this blog is that if im going to feel embarrassed or disappointed to blog about it later then maybe i shouldnt eat that, or maybe i really should work out one more time this week, etc. So thanks to those of you who have taken the time to read this and especially to those who have given me positive feedback- trust me, it goes a very long way.

i supposed i should get to some homework now so again, thanks for reading :) until next blog XOXO!

happy about life :)

So today I am feeling extra motivated :) I noticed for the very first time that one of my outfits is fitting me differently. Its not a huge difference, for instance you probably wouldnt notice, but to me it gave me a little boost to get through this day! So this coupled with 1. actually understanding what we covered in french class, 2. my economic development class being cancelled, 3. the beautiful day, and 4. my feelings of productivity i can tell that today will be a fantastic day!

I am already anticipating the potential struggle i could have at work tonight. At Triple Play Sportsplex the concession stand is free for employees....... so basically i need to STAY AWAY- pray for me. I have been doing a ton of upper body workouts and havent seen a huge result yet, but i can feel the resistance getting easier each day so thats a positive :) i downloaded the calorie counting app, my fitness pal, and it has helped me to focus on my goals one day at a time and whenever you submit a day's journal entry it tells you how much you could weigh in 5 weeks if you consume/workout the same amount everyday, and it is actually within my reach. I havent "dieted" successfully like...... ever, so to actually feel like i can do it this time is a huge step forward. I don't have to starve myself and sacrifice EVERY good food to be thin- i just have to do this in moderation. I think the flexibility of my new dieting process could be what ultimately helps me reach this goal :)

With finals coming up I dont have a ton of small assignments to do each week for some of my classes which is nice- it leaves me much more time to work out and plan meals. I have 2 presentations and a major project on the horizon so today seems like a good day to make some progress on those. OMG I ALMOST FORGOT

i made muscle milk popsicles yesterday- i know, im a genius. And im not saying these are the best popsicles ive ever had or that I would recommend them to all of my friends, but it was the closest thing to ice cream that i could think of, and it made me feel like I was cheating on my diet when i wasnt :) double win. i have found a bazillion different recipes to try on pinterest but without a kitchen it is hard to work out when/where i can make these. I can always go to my boyfriend's place but his schedule and mine are pretty much completely mismatched which is frustrating at times. Another frustration of dieting- its freaking expensive. Eating in the commons on campus is SO easy and essentially free for me (since lovely mom and pops pay for it) but it has absolutely no nutritional value whatsoever. And not to mention there are days when they have nothing healthy. Even the salad bar is lacking :( And sure, sureee i can make the best choices, but why even torture myself when I can just eat soup or something else where I know exactly what im eating and all that comes with it. Oh well- thus the fact that I need to start working again and making some money.


Well thanks for reading today's rants. Hopefully my next blog post will be equally as positive and uplifting as this one :) XOXO

A fresh start.... again.

     Well knee surgery proved to be a much larger setback than anticipated. I missed all of my spring season, to this day cannot do any leg lifts, and finally started doing lunges just last week. It really has been a poor 6 months or so with everything thats been happening at home and with surgery, but the glass is half full. I have a new found motivation these days. I am not certain where it came from but why question a good thing? :)

     I started counting calories about 2 weeks ago, and took a new approach to dieting. I used to look at dieting as a severe lifestyle change. I would barely eat anything for 4 to 5 days and then eventually just give in and eat whatever the hell i wanted. Nowadays, i've started to make much better choices. I am eating less, yes, but i am also being reasonable- i havent starved myself and i am noticing how much easier it is to diet when youre NOT CONSTANTLY HUNGRY. its pretty amazing. Along with smaller meals many times a day, I have found a routine, which yes does get boring, but seems to be working for me. Progressive light soups, which range from 160-190 calories per can, instant oatmeal, chewy bars, and yogurt. Whenever I get sick of eating this I normally pick up a sub from firehouse or subway, or the margarita grilled chicken from Chili's (roughly 600 calories). The chicken from Chili's is such a lifesaver. It is delicious and nutritious!

     Since spring season is finally over, working out is going to get easier. During season it's hard to find time to work out after practice, individual practice, class, homework, zeta, and physical therapy, so I would usually just rely on weights/conditioning with the team. Now i dont have to worry about that :) I am going to start a lot of arm lifts and core work this week, and use physical therapy to tone my legs as much as possible. That is the most frustrating part. :/ I actually enjoy doing leg lifts, and HATE arm lifts, but i guess it is time to just change my mentality. Along with working out I have been taking a "weight loss supplement," but i definitely wouldnt call it that. It is the Mega T Green Tea pill. I think its pretty much just concentrated caffeine because it gives me a ton of energy (to burn at a workout) but otherwise I dont see a whole lot of benefits from it although it does help me concentrate on work, thus earning the name "crack pill." Its benefits outweigh its drawbacks- mainly dehydration, anxiousness, and jitters on occasion.

     Another aid to my diet these days comes from my boyfriend :) he has started a recent health trend and although we have completely different goals, he helps encourage me! He wants to gain weight, and wouldnt it be nice if he and i could just trade problems?! whatever! if he can manage to get to the gym 6 nights a week then i should be able to do that too. plus its always fun to try and beat him at stuff- he helps spark some competitiveness out of this diet.

     I have also encompassed this diet into a new outlook i guess you could say. I started a one month tanning membership (i know the risks of skin cancer are actually working against me in the long run but anyway...) and maybe if i feel more inclined to show a little (tan) skin, then i will feel even more motivated :) so to sum up all of my progress over the past two weeks i have established a goal date- senior week! since i will spend half of that week in a swim suit anyway i wanna look goooooooood. so that gives me three-four weeks (i think?) to do the best I can. I have a goal weight in mind, but I dont want to focus on the number as much as feeling good about myself- afterall, no one will know the number but me ;)

this crack pill has me feeling extra productive so i must leave you readers. :) until next time- au revoir!